She could rIp open her presents,
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When the dust Is blown away,
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At her party she was unhappy and,
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SInce that last party,
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For months now,
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And so It Is that I approach the ImmInent thIrd bIrthday wIth the usual mIxture of emotIons Rett has taught me to expect: settled In amongst the excItement of watchIng hIm open hIs presents,
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